Have you ever played The Sims? You know when you have a goal for them and all the Sim is doing is working, sleeping, eating, peeing, showering, and everything else to just keep all it's energies in the green?
That is the PERFECT analogy for my life right now. I haven't stopped trying to keep my mood in the green and just chilled for a minute.
I've taken over Leelish's job at the doctor's office so I now how a semi-full-time job. Despite the fact that it is an hours drive to and from work every day, I still enjoy myself and the people I am working with.
I'm adjusting to married life with surreal ease. It doesn't feel like I'm married, it just feels like I'm living with my best friend and lover.
We are also getting a new puppy! It will be a male boxer and his name will be Harvey. I am beyond excited, he is due to be born any time this week!
If I every can stabalize my life, I think I will be able to blog more often, something I want to get back into the habbit of doing.
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Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Friday, April 23, 2010
Burning Bridges
I always promised myself that as I moved forward in life that I would not burn bridges behind me. Today I feel as though that promise will be broken in a matter of time. School and work have literally sucked me in 100% and taken away all of my free time. School I can deal with, however, work is not something I enjoy and has progressed into more of a chore than a job. Don't get me wrong, I take pride in my work and like to do it correctly. However, my work morale has sunken to an all time low that I have not felt since my first job.
Instead of going through all of the dirty details that I have already vented to my fiance and mother, I shall move on to the more important subject on the matter. I have thrown myself back into the application world.
Granted, I never exactly left, I just stopped looking hardcore. I more or less applied to whatever was thrown my way. That's not how things are going down this time. My fiance has completely re-vamped my entire resume and I have applied for two jobs, one in the government and one at a college. Both of which have not told me no yet! I did apply to a job in D.C. but they told me that the position has already been filled.
I've gotten so numb to the application process that I began to stop caring. However, this time around I feel more inclined to want these jobs then just apply because I know I should. Especially the government job. As I get closer to my wedding date I realize that I need money. And my current sales position is not bringing money in. At all. Giving me the straight conclusion that in order for me to enjoy the married life, I need a full time "real" job.
Applying for jobs has also had me thinking and talking a lot with God. I realize that He will lead me in the path that He wants me to take, however, I need to be willing to follow him. For all of those positions I applied before, I was numb, I did not care what I applied for, I just applied because I knew I needed a new job. I feel quite differently now and have had the epiphany that I should truly look for something that will make me happy and that I will want to do, and then maybe God will give me a more clear direction of which way He is leading me.
As for my current position, if I new job does not present itself soon, I have every intention of leaving my position and downgrading myself into another retail location. There is only so much one person can take.
Oh, and when I do leave this position? I will light the match that burns this bridge. Not every bridge will lead me to where I need to be.
Instead of going through all of the dirty details that I have already vented to my fiance and mother, I shall move on to the more important subject on the matter. I have thrown myself back into the application world.
Granted, I never exactly left, I just stopped looking hardcore. I more or less applied to whatever was thrown my way. That's not how things are going down this time. My fiance has completely re-vamped my entire resume and I have applied for two jobs, one in the government and one at a college. Both of which have not told me no yet! I did apply to a job in D.C. but they told me that the position has already been filled.
I've gotten so numb to the application process that I began to stop caring. However, this time around I feel more inclined to want these jobs then just apply because I know I should. Especially the government job. As I get closer to my wedding date I realize that I need money. And my current sales position is not bringing money in. At all. Giving me the straight conclusion that in order for me to enjoy the married life, I need a full time "real" job.
Applying for jobs has also had me thinking and talking a lot with God. I realize that He will lead me in the path that He wants me to take, however, I need to be willing to follow him. For all of those positions I applied before, I was numb, I did not care what I applied for, I just applied because I knew I needed a new job. I feel quite differently now and have had the epiphany that I should truly look for something that will make me happy and that I will want to do, and then maybe God will give me a more clear direction of which way He is leading me.
As for my current position, if I new job does not present itself soon, I have every intention of leaving my position and downgrading myself into another retail location. There is only so much one person can take.
Oh, and when I do leave this position? I will light the match that burns this bridge. Not every bridge will lead me to where I need to be.
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