Mother's Day

Yesterday we went to my grandmother's grave to change the flowers. It was a pretty afternoon and the weather was nice and cool. It was the first time I really took B out to the grave site. It was amazing how powerfully I felt my grandmother there. It was like the moment we walked up I knew she was there. I felt her extreme love for her family,  and especially my B.

I often struggle with missing her when I think of how much she would have enjoyed B here in the physical world. I was reminded yesterday of how she is enjoying him in the spiritual world as well.

I truly felt her love for him. I could hear her voice talking to him and enjoying his silliness as he "fluffed" the flowers we placed on her grave. 

I have so many loved ones watching over my son and that's a great feeling. I miss my family who have passed on, but I often feel the presence of certain family members--even K's passed family members. When I feel them, I feel comfort. I know my little man is being watched over and protected.

It was a great feeling to have Leelish's presence around yesterday. I miss her more than there are words to describe, so it's nice to feel her love in such a physical way like that.