Some how, some way, I've made it here. A wife, a spouse, and forever a best friend to my new husband. The wedding went beautifully. My good friend stood in as my photographer since mine was sick. She did brilliant. Everything was perfect and my reception was more fun than anyone ever expected. It was exactly what we all needed. A GREAT time.
Now I am in Ireland, going from castle to castle visiting the place I've always wanted to visit. I never thought I'd get here. It still doesn't seem real and I know I'll blink and be on the plane home.
The first day we stayed in Adare Manor, and now we are in Ashford Castle. It is really a castle, it literally takes your breath away when you look at it. Tomorrow we head to Ballynahinch Castle. I love it here and we've already decided that we are coming back as much as possible and money allows us. It's just...wonderful and so relaxing. A bit expensive, but God has blessed us to bring us here today.
In other news Leelish is home for now. She continues to have radiation on her brain and Tuesday she will talk with the doctors to see what the next steps are. I keep praying hard, selfishly I want her here on earth longer, but I don't want her to suffer. I just want to give her a great-grandchild and I want her to be able to enjoy him/her. I don't know God's plans but I do know that God has blessed me with strength to not be sad about her on the trip. I don't think anyone could be sad here.
I just cannot believe I'm married.
I cannot wait to hear all about it! I think I'm going to ask to have an Ireland/Scotland honeymoon when I get married. You know, whenever that will be. But I know what you mean. Ever since my mom had her stroke, she may seem ok, but I know that her life isn't going to be very long. It's scary to think that whatever problems she may have may be hereditary and therefore my life might not be very long either. I want for my mom to be able to enjoy grandchildren. It's scary to think that she's only 46, and yet her life seems so fragile to me... kind of like Leelish is to you right now. I've seen my mom's life flash before my eyes, and it's terrifying. But, I know God is always in control. It's something I've had to learn and live with for the greater portion of my life. I guess I just really understand where you are at right now... it's hard to deal with, but you aren't alone and you never will be anymore!
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